start of something new

I have been reading the blogs of some youth ministry workers at Saddleback Church who will remain unamed for their privacy and mine and have decided to start a blog of my own.
I have a blog on livejournal but havent been on it for ages and its way back from j-high and freshman year of high school, i also have blogged on myspace but thats getting old. well not myspace but just blogging there!
basically i needed somewhere that i could call "home" and talk about the things i wanna talk about! so here it is, my new "home"

i have to be up and at church in exactly 6 hours which means that i need to get up in 5 hours to start getting ready! im not even close be being tired. i didnt drink caffeine today so i know that cant be it, but i think it may be the mixture of sleeping too much last night and the fact that i am home alone and will be tomorrow too! i have never been home alone over night/weekend! this is weird but i guess almost being 20 i need to get over some fears sooner or later!
ahhh....im almost 20. brett and i were talking about this today at hsm. he thought it was weird that i still went to hsm even though i have finished my first year of college and am almost 20. little does he know that i will soon be an adult volunteer there! but it got me thinking, i AM almost 20!! there are so many things one should have done by this time that i have not done nor will do by then. some of which i am proud of and semi-proud of!
proud of...
i have never drank more than a sip of alcohol and that sip was champagne at a wedding of which i did not like
i dont know what weed looks like or smells like
i have not had sex or anything close to it
i have not written a paper that was longer than 8 pages (i assume this will be accomplished before i turn 20 as i will be starting my sopmore year of college in august)
i have never done a bibliography or works sites page (see above)
semi proud of...
i have not had a real boyfriend (youll know what i mean by "real" in posts to come and no i have not had an imaginery one!)
i have yet to have my first kiss (im a girl its kind of a big deal)
i have never changed churches (i attend the same one as i did when i was a baby, but i also now attend saddleback church)

i guess i should go now, no one will read this but thats ok!
i need to figure this thing out!